The couch in our house is old, worn out and uncomfortable. Yet, I have been having a very hard time replacing it with a new one. Surprisingly, as I was talking about throwing out the couch my eyes welled up with tears. I know that I need to replace it. But I don’t want to replace it.

This morning I realized why. I have spent countless hours sitting on this couch chatting with my sons after school. This is where we’ve discussed their plans for university, their plans for life. Since both of them are moved out, we don’t spend as much time talking. Getting rid of the couch feels like letting go of my sons.

Keeping it makes me feel connected with my sons, it reminds me of how much I enjoyed our daily conversations. I am aware that change has already happened. I only became aware of all the feelings connected with this old couch today.
As an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) I take so many things into consideration when making a decision. If I don’t do that, I feel uncomfortable about the decision. I know from clients accounts and personal experience how frustrating and totally in-comprehensive this seemingly long process of decision making can be for a partner and how it can affect your relationship.

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